I was so excited when I was accepted at Master's. I was crestfallen when I learned I was getting no financial aid. I was apathetic when I learned maybe I could still go there.
And now I've just decided not to.
As some of you might know, during last summer, I was seriously considering CalPoly. But, my mom didn't really like the idea of my going to a non-private college, and so the idea eventually wore off. *It has returned* :) However, it's too late to get into CalPoly, even if my grades and SATs are good enough. So, as a way to make my way in through the back door, I'm going to be enrolling in Cuesta Community College this Fall Quarter, and living with an as yet unknown roommate. In this beautiful way, I will be...
a) living at the beach
b) saving money at a community college
c) living on my own in an apartment
d) sneaking into CalPoly after two years
e) did I say living at the beach?:)
I'm super excited about this new direction. I really can't wait to leave actually. I'm ready to leave, as what a customer at Starbucks called it yesterday, The Black-Hole that I currently live in:) Definitely.
Yes, definitely... :)
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Black Hole:
a) Central Valley
b) Home
c) all of the above
Remember, you can take the Girl out of the Valley and Home, and you can take the Valley and Home out of the Girl, but you can't take the Girl out of the Girl!
Being content wherever you are, and with who you are, is a life lesson of inestimable value.
Love you!
mom, Please don't rain on my parade. The point was that everyone gets stuck and never leaves this area.
Ah, the black hole, it wasn't long ago before I escaped the clutches of my overbearing life in Motown. About a year before I left home, there was this gut feeling inside me that began making me resent everything that put restrictions on me (work, school, home). I wanted to leave home, to get away and live on a schedule of my choosing.
Unfortunately, my folks didn't seem to understand what I was going through, subsequently placing a lot of irrational restrictions and barriers to keep me from tasting independence. Small things, like all of a sudden after years of no real curfew, my dad is claiming that I've always had to be home by midnight on Fridays. Or my mom would get upset with me over something frivolous, and in her own personal frustrations with me growing up, she would throw some restriction on me as punishment. In hindsight, it's easy to see that my folks were really just trying to convince themselves that I still needed them by locking me up. It's a terrible tactic that made me resent them for quite some time.
I can only hope that your parents have figured this out since you have two older siblings. I'm sure they're rational people and understand that how hard the last year at home can be on their kid. I'm sure no matter what, the last year is definitely rough for anyone. It's like there's this polarity shift that happens that makes you repel everything that has to do with home - when at one time you used to embrace it. Just keep smiling for another six months or so, then you will be free of that black hole of yours. Then, you can fulfill all your parents' wildest fears *cough* dreams. :)
4 months actually:)
I am excited for you. Hopefully it will be a great experience. Maybe I will see you around soon.
Wow! I will definitley be going to visit you =)
Can I visit when I return to the good 'ol USA? Check out Campus Crusade. You will be with a ton of people asking the hard questions in life... it's a really good place to be! I'm so excited that you're going to SLO! See ya, sista!
Hey thanks for the post, will be praying for you. Life is good here. Stressful sometimes but good.
Dear Elizabeth,
It was wonderful seeing you at your graduation party. You are a beautiful young lady. We look forward to seeing you again. We hope you visit us all in Roseville.
You can get our email address from your mom. We'd love to hear from you.
Love,
Grandpa Clark & Donna
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